And then I woke up.
And I praised God again. Hallelujah! What a great parenting day yesterday was. We sure were doing some things right. We have some pretty amazing kids.
And then they woke up.
Just in case you were under the impression that the Stutz family had this parenting thing all figured out, I thought I should advise you otherwise. With one off to college and two teenagers, we are still learning. They are still learning. They are young men and women in progress. They aren't yet who they will become one day. And our job is to lead them, love them and guide them to the best of our abilities daily, one step at a time.
But today, today was an hallelujah morning. Not the kind that I woke up to. This was a different kind of hallelujah morning. This was the one where everyone finally gets out the door, I throw my hands up in the air, look up to God and shout "Hallelujah!". And no, not with joy because it was so sweet, and wonderful and I felt so blessed. But because I had survived, they were gone and I now had peace.
Did you know it is pie day today? March 14th. 3/14. 3.14. Did you know ALL of my daughter's friends are bringing in pies for lunch? And she, she doesn't have a pie today? No? And did you know, that this is just the end of the world? And I offered to go buy a pie (right? Too nice). And did you know that dropping off a pie at school is just weird?
And leggings....they have bumps in them and they don't feel right...and it bothers her OCD. She has no clothes. Why does she have no clothes (says the girl with a closet full of clothes).
And her tank top straps are too long. Save until you grow I say....when, like in 50 years...she comes back with sarcastically?
Where are her shoes? Where is her backpack? Where is ALL of her stuff that she misplaces but somehow ends up to be my fault?
I want to scream. But I don't. I breathe. Deeply. I know she is exhausted. She is tired. She is irrational. She is hormonal. I recently heard an acronym for Q-TIP that I keep saying to myself in regards to teenagers and their sometimes mood swings...Quit Taking It Personally. And it really is fitting.
But when I dropped her off at school, got home and shut the door, I raised my hands and shouted "Hallelujah"!
So often in the world of social media we see everyone's family best. Johnny made the honor roll, again! Suzy got a music scholarship to an Ivy league school! Mason is walking at 6 months old! We all want to share those proud moments. There is nothing wrong with it. Of course we should be proud. What we are missing though is everything in between and as the perceivers of these lives, we can easily get caught up in a keeping up with the Jone's mentality when it comes to parenting and family life. We must rejoice in those moments with our friends and family. Share in their joy. But also know that they are no different than you or I. I promise you that there are many hard things in their lives they are going through. Most people do not put things out there for several reasons. Some our insecure. Some want to protect their families. Some are very private. And sure, some want to keep up an appearance of perfection.
I am not going to put everything out there. Especially with other members of my family. I respect the privacy of my kiddos and my husband. I share a lot more with my own trials because I feel God has called me to do this and it is my choice. I am confident in this decision and okay with the any repercussion that may come from this. The risk is far outweighed by the reward of allowing others to know they are not alone in their suffering.
Which brings me to this. Yes, yesterday was a really, great, pretty awesome parenting day. I saw my girls be loving and kind in so many ways. I was so proud and praising God. But this is not every day. No, we have plenty of other days that are like today. I have many, many hallelujah mornings too. And if you are having an hallelujah morning ...or day....or year...just know you aren't alone. Talk with those you trust. Pray and ask God for guidance. And know that He loves your children far more than even you do (HALLELUJAH!!!).