It's strange how we don't realize we are fighting the battle on our own until we are in the mix of it, not fully armed. That's where I was a week ago. It was as if the enemy had me surrounded and instead of summoning the God of heavens armies for help, I tried to fight on my own. The longer I chose to fight in my own strength, the weaker I became. Soon, the arrows of anxiety and fear were penetrating my heart and mind. At first I fight harder, until at last I realize there is no fight left in me and it's time to surrender.
At this point, a choice is made. Do I surrender to the circumstances and the feelings or do I call on my God for help? If I choose the circumstances and feelings I sink deeper into despair. There is no hope in them because they are constantly changing. But when I choose God, something amazing happens. He somehow places a forcefield between the circumstances and my heart and mind. He reminds me of what Philippians 4:6-7 says:
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Circumstances haven't changed, but my perspective does. He doesn't promise to take away the circumstance, but He does promise to give us his peace, the kind of peace that is beyond our understanding. He also promises to protect our hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Somehow, in the midst of it all, a "God thing" happens and our spirit is transformed. While the arrows of life charge at us, God stops them before they take hold of our hearts and minds. Our God stands before us and says "I got this".
It seems to be a lesson I learn over and over again. Every time I say "I got this God", He seems to let me go until I listen for His voice. When I take time to stop, talk with Him and ask Him to fight the battle, He reminds me of His promises. I finally hear Him saying "I got this".